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Chapter
Fourteen
The
Metaphysics of a Slippery Slope
The
next morning the house was still. Alone again, longing for Blackie,
Cinderella found a note on the table. The Fairy Godmother asked her
to pick out a staff from wood stacked in the corner.
The
note said: “Cinderella, in the world of Fairy Godmothers, a staff
is both a mystical and utilitarian tool. You may use it for balance
or defense. More importantly a Fairy Godmother’s staff is a
reflection of personal authority. Draw or carve symbols specific to
your version of beauty, your understanding of power and dreaming.”
Cinderella
sipped hot tea and read on.
“
For
example, your first symbol might be roses. A flower’s beauty is
important to you for many reasons. Time spent gardening with your
mother. Roses reflect this connection. Draw or paint a rose on your
staff. What are the other symbols of your love and purpose
Cinderella? Will you follow your mother’s path as a healer?”
Pouring
tea Cinderella murmured, “I will be honored to follow mother’s
path as a healer.” She sat and dipped a spoon into yogurt and oats
blended with dried fruit. Licking the spoon she said, “I’d like
to learn more. How do we heal the mind and heart? Where does spirit
interface with the body? Is it in the central nervous system? Does
ceremonial intent translate into our bodies, minds and hearts through
the central nervous system? Can we refine these dimensions with
prayer and ceremony?
How
do we sever our ties with what’s detrimental to us and enhance our
ties with what creates well-being? These are the questions I need to
answer to become a healer.”
She
picked up the Fairy Godmother’s note finishing the last sentence.
“
Today
you will cross the mountain pass. It is a treacherous trail. Stay
alert. Drink water. I send you blessings on your quest.”
Cinderella
searched the staffs with a clatter of wood. One staff when her hand
tightened around the circumference made a great cracking noise
followed by a flash of light. Radiance filled the cabin. Intensity so
brilliant Cinderella squeezed her eyes shut. Her grip melded to the
stick now the weight of heavy iron. Her legs gave out. She tumbled to
the floor. Every cell vibrated with the enormity, the unfathomable
echoes of light, reverberating through her.
It
was too much. It was too much to bear the weight of the light, and
the darkness in its wake. Cinderella fainted into a place of great
balance. Standing at the threshold of spirit, where substance and
spirit meet. Bits and particles of light dancing around her staff,
light as a feather, floated in front of her.
Reaching,
her trembling hand encircled the wood. She felt a rush of
inexplicable joy and she was explosively propelled into her body.
Pinned down on the pine floor by the ironwood weight of the staff,
aching and stiff, Cinderella felt an unquenchable thirst. Light had
parched every cell. Pushing the great burden off her chest the staff
clattered and rolled across the floor. She ran to the sink. Water
flowed down her throat. Cool and sweet.
Afraid
of what the staff might do next. Wondering if it was dangerous, she
gingerly placed it by the door with her pack and hat. She washed the
dishes, made the bed and swept the floor. Looking around with
satisfaction at the cheerful cottage Cinderella gathered her
equipment. The magical staff, now as light as a feather, masqueraded
as a walking stick.
Pulling
on her pack she cried out in surprise. Muscles across her shoulders,
the blades where angel wings grow, burned with the ethereal fire of
her staff.
With
her hand on the door knob she paused. She ran back to the kitchen and
drank an extra glass of water. Her eye fell on a pencil. Swiftly
sketching a rose twining around the stalk of her staff she tucked the
pencil in a pocket. With a prayer of thanks she opened the blue door
and stepped out into the sunny day.
She
was at a loss to explain what happened when she put her hands on her
staff. That she was transfigured in the light she knew. “What does
it mean?” She had no idea. While the experience happened in the
blink of an eye, she consoled herself, “some things just take time
to understand.”
Did
she vibrate now at the frequency of joy? Her face softened. Lips
lifted, her eyes sparkled. Beauty flowed out of her. Of course she
had no idea. Following the trail behind the house led to another
series of stone steps carved into the mountain. Her legs recovering
from the strain of yesterday’s hike had no stuffing in them. She
felt light and free. It wasn’t her legs propelling her up these
mountain stairs. It was her lightness of spirit. She floated on the
residual glow of light.
Stairs
gave way to shale and dirty snow. Cinderella was grateful for the hat
shading the glare of sun glinting off snow. The staff gave her
support yet her knee strained against the exertion. When she came to
the edge of a glacier she stuttered to a stop. Her gaze fell across
the vast expanse lost in the white hot wilderness.
Reflected
heat from the sun poured off the glacier; a horizontal wall of ice, a
sea of endless blue white. Sugary snow blew in drifts. The drifts
magnetized into bristly ice spikes. Heart pounding she took a
tentative step onto the glacier. Had she ever felt so terrified and
alone? The layer of ice under the thin layer of snow made navigation
slow and treacherous.
Going
back was not an option. Slipping and sliding Cinderella fought her
way around the spikes. She circumnavigated the stalagmites of snow,
to the far corner where shale met forming a ninety degree angle. It
was the only avenue to continue her climb. Her mouth was dry and
gritty. She licked chapped lips. Arms and legs screaming with oxygen
deprivation at the higher altitudes grew heavy and clumsy. Could this
be where she was meant to go? It seemed far too dangerous.
She
would give anything to be in her mother’s garden pruning and
weeding. She’d rather be washing dishes for her stepmother than
climb this crevasse. Looking for hand holds she realized her staff
would be the best support available. Freeing her water bottle with
shaky hands she drank. In the blink of an eye her mouth was filled
with the cotton of dehydration.
Wedged
into the crevasse she began climbing slippery shale. Walking under a
lip of granite hung with icicles as thick as a tree she reached out
to touch one. A thunderous pounding, was her only warning followed by
tons of granite and ice, poured off the mountain. She threw herself
deep into the ledge slamming her face into the granite wall seeking
safety. Blood poured from her nose and lip. She cowered in corner
where the ledge met the mountain. Avalanches go quickly, but
Cinderella continued to shake glued to her corner.
Icicles
fell with a thud and the tinkling of a crystal chandelier. Cinderella
shuddered. The mountains of her childhood had gone from playground to
killing fields. Her heart hammered. Blood miraculously for high
altitude, clotted her split lip.
She
felt confused. Even the clearest directions would be hard to follow.
Part of her wanted to sit down. Wait for the aching cold to transform
into drowsy warmth. Surrounded by miles of snow and ice, she was
ravenous for water. She finished her first bottle and packed it with
fresh snow. Pulling her hat with the flopping brim firmly down to
shade her eyes she continued walking the steep incline, disoriented
each step herky-jerky.
The
glacier, a sea of pearlescent whiteness dazzled her in its glare.
Sliding in the freshly fallen sugary snow the inevitable happen. Her
foot, weakened in the previous day’s fall, slipped. Arms waving,
her staff clattered off the mountain’s edge. Eyes following the
staff’s trajectory Cinderella’s body followed. Sailing off the
mountain into blue sky and white snow, her stomach twisted with
instant nausea. Her weakened ankle threw her flat.
She
slid to a stop.
Cinderella
felt hysteria bubbling up. Rolling over she lay on her back looking
up at the blue sky laughter surged from her like a river. Surrounded
by water she could smell and taste, without a drop to drink. The
situation seemed both comical and absurd. In the background the
frontal lobe part of her brain told her she was in grave danger. A
curtain had come down shielding that part of her mind. Although she
heard its faint alarm she was disconnected from its urgency. She
could only feel the vast expanse of mountain wilderness pressing
against her soul. She was awed but permeated with a feeling of doom.
She
did a quick mental scan. She didn’t seem to be leaking any fluids.
She felt a stark craving for Blackie’s presence. Shifting her pack
she took a cleansing breath. She would rest. She would pause. Inhale
and exhale intentional rest. She was alone, isolated on an endless
glacier of blue white snow.
She
had to figure out a way to care for herself and to combat the
feelings of doom. In a wilderness beyond her comprehension no words
described the massive desolation pressing on her. And yet the endless
blue sky, just beginning to build thunder clouds, the unremitting
white glacier were stark with a beauty that seared across the hard
wiring of the amygdale transporting her from terror into serenity.
How
was this possible?
She
was irrevocably alone in this moment; dependent completely on her own
resources. Was this the lesson of the North? To be an adult is to be
thrown onto your personal capacities. To find and carve out a path
stamped with a singular identity? But did anyone really have a
personal identity? Weren’t people in-part a product of interactions
with others?
Here
in the land of adult, at the mercy of her own resources, the terrain
was both sacred and menacing. The air was charged with the mountain’s
enormous spirit. The moment required simple acts. Her survival
depended on her ability, surrounded by unfathomable amounts of
spirit, to take the right action.
She
rolled onto her side. Just one more quiet breath and she would get up
and find her way out, beyond this glacier. Pushing with her hands she
sat up. Her ankle and knee throbbed. Rummaging in her pack she found
the whisper thin cashmere scarf. Then she realized. She couldn’t
take off her shoe in this cold. She could be bitten by the frost.
Her
staff was not far. Cinderella crawled on her hands and knees to
collect the piece of wood her survival now depended on. She took out
her second bottle of water and drank. Drinking mechanically knowing
it wouldn’t resolve her thirst. Only finding her way off the
mountain would take care of her craving for water.
Hauling
herself up to standing by climbing her staff hand over hand,
Cinderella stood. She stilled the wobble. What next? Surrounded in
uniform whiteness which way was North? Disoriented, now her heart
began to thunder. Her lip throbbed. Her ankle ached. She was going to
have to find the quickest way to safety. Which way was safety? She
couldn’t stand here in indecision. Yet her feet were rooted to the
spot. She wanted to run in every direction at once. She longed to run
in circles yet stood paralyzed. The mountain’s spirit, the unseen
force, was holding her still. She wasn’t frozen. She was gripped,
owned, by the mountain. A speck within its vast unknown, was this a
lover’s embrace or death?
Standing,
caught, in the spell; a great wash of transcendent fire, inscribed
this immeasurable, pristine wilderness of whiteness on the bones of
her soul. In a roar of jubilation Cinderella’s soul and spirit were
one. Soaring in the freedom of this union she had a passing thought.
“Didn’t the Fairy Godmother of the West give me a compass?”
Back
in the confines of her body she ached with cold. It was a bone
chilling misery. A misery she was never happier to feel. Pulling on
her extra mittens and alpaca hat she stamped the snow off her boots.
She didn’t notice her ankle and knee no longer hurt.
Pulling
out the compass she began walking North. The mountain stole her
hunger to feed its soul walking in the unending whiteness.
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